I am a constant work in progress.
2016 was a quite a year for me, to say the least. I pretty much got really caught up in the moment so the future wasn’t something really on my mind even though it should of been. I was just caught up in procrastination, laziness, and sleep deprivation. I let grades slip, friends fall off, let relationships with family members deteriorate, and gave Miranda a run for her money. I decided that staying up too late and doing everything possible to avoid what I should really be doing was more important. I decided that I was just going to live life the way it was. I would lie and tell those around me that I had big goals, that I wanted to do this and become this. At the end of the day, I would look in the mirror and know that I was lying.
I had no motivation because I had stopped looking at what I had in front of me. Instead, I would focus on what I didn’t have. It polluted my image of my life, and I honestly thought myself inadequate. I told myself I wasn’t a good boyfriend for Miranda or that I deserve my education. I convinced myself that I wasn’t good enough for anything because I failed to see what I had: a beyond amazing fiancée, a loving and supporting family, a free education, a good job, and good people to call my friends (Chase, I’m thinking of you).
A lot of things have led to this point in my life where I’m constantly striving to be better. For a year, I decided that I wasn’t going to try. This year, I’m deciding that I’m going to accomplish everything that I want. I know it’s going to take a lot of hard work, but I’m ready.